my life is a constant struggle
and i'm tired of it

and it really does just break my heart


someone just asked me recently about bein in LA
i can't remember the actual question
probably about livin alone

point bein
i can't help but feel alone
in more than one way

UGH

i'd written all these examples
and you know what?
it's not even worth it

we'll just go with

painful memories



in any case,
i feel like i'm back at square one
only, defeated...

so what's the point?

Santa pic 2009 a.k.a. "The Kids Who Never Look At The Camera" pic

I hate when automated emails know me so well:

Amanda ,

So, here you are, over 6 months after college graduation...no job, no income, no money for rent, gas, food, travel, or going out. Why is this happening? You are clearly the kind of person an employer would want to hire. [That last line sounds a bit sarcastic, actually.]

I finally have longish hair for the first time in about two years. I've forgotten how long it takes to dry! And somehow I smacked myself in the forehead with the hairdryer this morning. I bet no one's ever done that! I also habitually manage to jam my toothbrush into my gums when I brush my teeth. OWW! sounds really funny with a mouth full of toothpaste.

I was sifting through my external HD and found this unfinished "holiday" piece which was my last attempt at prose in recent years. I wrote it in December 2005. It's pretty silly like most of the things I wrote in my late teen years (weird that I can say that...wahh, old).

( The Untitled Anneke and Harlequin Winter Project by D.S. Greenwald* )

*I just Googled "D.S. Greenwald" and there are ACTUAL people named that, UGH